When I did my score this morning I got 65% (average 59%) so pretty good.  The score comes from having a 2 on most of the positive cards and a 0 on most of the negative cards - I try to be honest, but I do not always know how I feel.

However, my comment says: “I am thinking that I don’t feel complete - not really correct, but don’t know how to express it. I seem to have a block on my joy receptors. There seems to be nothing much the matter with me, but my senses are flat. Though I can function well day to day, I seem to have no passion. I cannot decide how to spend my time and thus seem to waste a lot of it.”

On the day that I began writing this, I got up in good time and arrived at the outdoor pool as it opened. It is soothing to swim some of the lengths on my back to look at the blue sky, criss crossed with aeroplane con trails, wondering what far flung country the planes are going to.

After my swim I sat on the terrace looking out at a field of sheep with their lambs. It was peaceful watching them graze and seeing the little ones scurrying back to mum to suckle. The day before I had stayed longer, to have a cup of coffee and read my book - the last in a series of eight, so now I need to find another to engross me.

While it has been hot I have been mostly staying indoors - I have to set myself a timer to prevent me from doom scrolling. It is too hot to play with the dog, after an early walk, so we keep cool and walk again later in the day.

I have a jigsaw on the go, but had to put it away when we had guests over the past week. I still don’t feel that I am firing on all cylinders, in spite of all the good things I have around me. It frustrates me to be so apathetic. I need some zing…

Best wishes to all Moodscopers.

Love, 

Another Sally x

A Moodscope member