Be yourself, they say

just relax and

be yourself.

Which self?

The quiet, patient, timid one,

the sleepy,lethargic, procrastinating one,

the confident, bold, talkative one,

the impatient, creative, irritable one,

the sad, tearful, indecisive one,

the quick thinking, fast talking one,

the noisy, argumentative one.

But friends, family, blogs, media, books

all say

I need to be more

patient,

kind,

understanding,

positive,

energetic.

They say

read more, watch tv less,

exercise more, eat less,

tidy more, clutter less,

listen more, talk less,

praise more, complain less,

act more, procrastinate less.

How can I be myself

if I have to change.

A lifetime of trying to find

my real self,

my authentic self,

but she is lost in a fog

of labels and bad memories.

Just be yourself,

stop worrying.

Stop worrying,

where do I begin?

Leah

A Moodscope member.