Can I be too ‘well’?

16 Nov 2023

This is an odd question, but one I asked myself after a series of Moodscope 100% scores. I remembered Mary mentioning she knew her medication was a problem when she dropped from her usual mid 70’s to the 30’s. One of my problems has been recognising recurrences of depression, despite a lifetime’s experience. I have usually stopped self monitoring (because I don’t need to, because I am now ‘well’) and attribute my tiredness to a cold, or being busy at work, or the seasonal mood variation that ‘everyone’ gets. This time around, I only realised I’d relapsed when I found I was making some significant mistakes at work. Then I realised (checking my list of relapse indicators that I keep in the back of my notebook) that I was indeed depressed again. The usual ambivalence about this – for who wants to be ‘ill’? But medication restarted, support from colleagues and some partial sick leave meant that my scores on Moodscope rose rapidly over a couple of months, and I was ‘better’.

Now I have been (gently) challenged on this whole concept of ill/well by my counsellor. Grudgingly, I think they may have a point! While I know when I am depressed, with scores of less than 10%, I am definitely ‘ill’, I just don’t function, and the interior life is pretty dark and irrational. However, I am now, coming off a period of consistently high scores, and questioning how realistic ‘well’ is as a concept – after all, I know that 100% all the time is just not possible (on the law of averages, surely?) but maybe somewhere in me I want to be there…

I would be interested to hear how others use their scores?


A Moodscope member

Thoughts on the above? Please feel free to post a comment below.

Moodscope members seek to support each other by sharing their experiences through this blog. Posts and comments on the blog are the personal views of Moodscope members, they are for informational purposes only and do not constitute medical advice.

Email us at to submit your own blog post!


You need to be Logged In and a Moodscope Subscriber to Comment and Read Comments