I have not been diagnosed as bi-polar but do show bi-polar tendencies after a good night’s sleep.

Also, when antidepressants have worked, I am high for months until they stop working.

In between these events, my mood varies from very low to low but mainly, these days, just low and low in comparison with my highs.

I would love to have answers as to which is the real me. I know how I used to be growing up, mostly low. But something changed along the way in my late 30s and I experienced joy and highs, a new experience.

I have always aimed for a high every day but now I’m not sure that’s a good idea as I can be over the top and sometimes come away from seeing people regretting what I’ve had the confidence to say.

However when I’m low, I feel I’m not good company.

So my question really is, what is the better state of mood? Is it unnatural to be constantly high?

Thank you

Julia

A Moodscope member