When do you decide when enough is enough and you have to walk away? This can be hard when you have mental health issues as you are not always sure that what you are feeling is the right way. Do you stay or do you go? A situation has arisen where I have decided that my time is finished with something that I have been doing for a year and a half almost. When you are self employed, it is not a bed of roses, but you actively choose to walk away from often toxic situations or workplaces (and people), you don't always expect triggers to come up. You are actually in charge but perhaps some others see it differently. But you must listen to your heart and I am also sure of myself and what I am feeling inside. Having had a cough and cold for over three weeks now and now my other half has had an injury, necessitating myself being butler, cook, dog walker and more, I am utterly spent. He is very frustrated and unintentionally taking out frustrations, and it has felt personal although the logical me knows it's not meant like that. 

Sadness has prevailed since I started the role which runs alongside the main job, losing clients unexpectedly as well as dealing with bereaved people. It is draining and tiring, yet I have tried so hard to keep everyone happy, possibly at the expense of my own sanity at times. I have also decided that I would like next year to involve more positive work experiences. Waiting to hear about a potential role doing weddings (and if, big if, I get an interview). I've also got plans for my art and using the summer house as a mini studio (or the dining room alternatively which has a large table which can be used multi-purpose). There have been triggers with this situation which I have found uncomfortable and there will be backlash, as there always is, with unavoidable and uncomfortable decisions. Do feel free to share situations where you have decided bravely that something is not for you... if you wish to.

Liz

A Moodscope member