This is my first blog for Moodscope, apart from a couple of poems. Ratg encouraged us to give it a go. I enjoy reading the daily blogs and the replies. For me it’s a good start to my day, I feel, a kind of belonging. People on here, understand and support each other. It takes courage and trust to be open with thoughts and feelings that others can read.

One thought I have had recently, is that I expected that  getting older, life would be easier.  My children now have children of their own and they are all good to me so in practical terms it is. But I never expected to become so anxious, it seems to be about anything or nothing.

I have friends the same age who say it’s happening to them too. We have guessed at the reasons but no one seems to be sure. Another thing is vivid dreams. I can’t watch anything violent or scary.

I don’t like driving in the dark and I have to make sure there are comfort breaks on longer journeys, the list gets longer.

When I was younger, I did things, which I would class as risky now.

On the plus side, I have had more time to reflect on how I got to where I am and work through some past issues.

I read a lot, about different subjects. One interesting book which has been mentioned on Moodscope before is by Eckhart Tolle The Power of Now, staying in the present moment.

I have started a new course in person at a College to learn Hypnotherapy which is interesting and we learn a lot more than I was expecting. I have met some like minded people. This has been good for me and given me more purpose. We talk about our personal issues and being more open in the group has helped me to feel confident to write this blog. 

It would be great to know if any Moodscopers have been surprised at the vulnerability of getting older?

Love from

Yellow Rose

A Moodscope member.