I haven't written a blog for a while, I've wanted to, but just haven't had one in me! Nothing that would give anyone a lift anyway.

Then the title came to me.

There have been times that I felt that I couldn't enjoy anything, that there was no such thing as " finding happiness" or how to "be happy". Surely it's just a momentary state, an emotion due to something specific?

Euphoria and good old belly laughs are great, but rare for me. I'd like to think that laughter therapy is really funny, but I'm not convinced. Maybe someone out there can enlighten me?

So focussing on just being well, with no high expectations seemed to be the way to go.

Recently though, I've dared to think that I more often feel happy. More of the time, I do what I want to do. For myself and for others. I don't do what I don't want to do. I say what I want to say. I feel guilty less. People may not like that I'm not up for being controlled by them, but I'm basically a good person and entitled to make my own choices thank you very muchly! :)

So in doing pretty much exactly as I please, (ok so maybe not exactly...) I feel more free.

This is my life. I want to enjoy as much of it as I can and feel that I have suffered enough for anyone to get in the way of that.

I'm not saying it's easy and goodness knows it takes a long time, but it can happen. Moments of happiness really are more frequent and now I even find that sometimes I sing...

Lillypet

A Moodscope member.