Seasonal depression is upon me making everything a chore. It comes the same time that summer shifts into the blazing colours of fall and although I love the gorgeous landscapes, fatigue creeps over me. These days I sleep 14 hours and still feel tired. I am also more forgetful and making more mistakes, for which I berate myself.

Depression feeds on inactivity, I read somewhere. And it is true, I feel better after I have forced myself to get going on tasks and obligations and even better yet once I cross those items off of my to do list.

Depression also perpetuates inactivity. It is a chicken and egg conundrum, which came first? In my research I also discovered that exercise will help eliminate anxiety and depression. I wonder how much it would take to erase my dark clouds? Is it even attainable? I overwhelm myself with these thoughts before I even start...

Caffeine and sugar are said to accelerate emotional distress, along with gluten as a dis-ease promoting culprit. I have not yet ruled them out of my diet, now guilt over my lack of willpower stresses me afresh. 

Over and over I look at the incomplete tasks around me and ask myself; Why can't I just do this?! 

Bailey

A Moodscope member